It doesn't often happen the way you imagine it. But that doesn't have to be a bad thing.
Have you ever had one of those days where you’re just going about your usual business and someone says something that just sticks with you for longer than it should? Well, I’m going to tell you about one of those times, and also why it’s so important to let go of those types of things.
The smell of gingerbread and peppermint hit me as I entered my English class early, which indicated why there were christmas songs playing in the background. I remember sitting in my normal seat, near the back of the classroom, as my friend started conversation. I remember looking at the blackboard and seeing all the homework that was due that following week, but still couldn’t shake the feeling that I was really going to miss this place. I mean, let’s be honest, we all miss highschool after we graduate, not while we still have to wake up at 7 am every morning and have to skip breakfast to get to school on time just to listen to our lovely teachers talk about the same topic for weeks (it’s not their fault). This particular day in English class, our teacher had given us a little break while she set up the lesson, and during this time is when I was told something I knew I would not soon forget. My friend started talking about the topic that was talked about a lot during that time, “so what are your plans after highschool ends?” and I went on a bit of a tangent trying to explain exactly what it was that I was trying to do. Now that’s when I was hit with “you have your head in the clouds, one day reality will hit and then you’ll know.”
And let me just tell you now, a mere two years have passed since then, and of course I still remember that moment. But anyway, that day I thought that maybe I should take a more realistic route, not that I wasn’t being realistic- it was just that honestly I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do. But, as time often does, it passed quickly and swiftly until I almost forgot about those words. But then… it finally happened. Reality hit. Only two weeks into my first semester of University, I had a feeling wash over me that told me “well, it finally hit you.” But it wasn’t what I thought it would be at all, in fact it was quite the opposite.
How many times in your life have you looked back and thought “well if only I tried something different… or if only I had the courage to..” well it was one of those moments. If you live anywhere in Ontario, chances are you’ve heard of Ryerson University- and if you’ve heard of Ryerson University I’d be willing to bet you’ve heard of their Business Program too- which is a pretty practical choice for people to pursue. This was the program I had chosen to study. But that two hour commute, 8 am classes and finally one assignment that I found I had absolutely no interest in doing were finally too much for me to bear. And during the long commute home I knew I had to make a change. That was when reality hit- when I finally realized that reality is what you make it, and your life is about following your passions and seeing where it takes you, the “safe” option is never really that safe either.
So with the support of my parents, who I am so thankful for, I applied for a program that I was much more suited to: Communication Studies and English. The first few days I was a little worried if I made the right choice or not- but let me tell you, a few semesters in and I am already loving it! We all have people in our lives that urge us to see things from a different angle, and these people always help us learn something new, but at the end of the day only you are responsible for your happiness, or so I’ve learnt. So, keep your head in the clouds and go for what you love and what you are passionate about- you never know where it’ll take you. This world is full of wonders, and having the courage to explore them is insanely important. I hope you’ve learnt something from this little story in my life that I’ve shared, I want you all to have courage and pursue what it is that you think is important. We all feel fear, but that is never a reason not to try something. Sometimes you take a leap of faith, and end up changing your mind- that’s okay too. As long as you have courage and do what you love, you won’t look back.
Much love, Shahnoor.